“In the state of surrender, your form identity softens and becomes somewhat ‘transparent,’ as it were, so the Unmanifested can shine through you…. It’s up to you to open a portal in your life that gives you conscious access to the Unmanifested.… Love isn’t a portal; it’s what comes through the portal into this world.”*
From A Flower for God
1989
“Standing in my driveway, looking at the lawn that would soon spurt fat, yellow dandelions, and gazing up at the barely-open, light green leaves of the sugar maples, I felt bone-deep relief to be free. Now safe and breathing in fresh air, with my feet firmly on familiar gravel, I said to the trees and to the sky—‘There must be a better way.’*
By 1990
In a spiritual study group, I first learned what real love is, and my inquisitiveness remains today.
By 2014
In a peach-colored room, I am rhythmically moving my feet up and down on a bosu ball, positioned in front of a window, as I energetically sing to my iPod’s songs.
From Eckhart Tolle
“Pay more attention to the silence than to sounds. Paying attention to outer silence creates inner silence: the mind become still. A portal is opening up.”*
On my bosu ball, my gaze beyond the window moves slowly from small, dried leaves mulched under a neem tree to thin branches of bougainvillea wrapped around the thicker ones of neighboring neems, with rosy flowers peeking out through the green. If I feel the need to interrupt with a past or future thought, I rely on one of several phrases of truth, spoken inwardly, to return my eyes to newly opened leaves, only a few feet away—and I am holding more to silence each time.
“Things that are real are given and received in silence.”
~ Meher Baba*
* Eckhart Tolle, The Power of Now (Canada: Namaste Publishing Inc., 1997), 112.
* Prema Jasmine Camp, A Flower for God, currently in publication process.
* Tolle, 112.
* Meher Baba, www.lordmeyer.org, 1932.